I found this on an old jump drive and thought I’d share it.
At the age of 31, I’m just beginning to accept myself. I think the first 25 years, at least, we spend trying to force ourselves into a mold. That mold depends on our views of who we should be. In my life, who I should be didn’t match up to who I was; although, who I am really has never changed. I think that’s the most devastating reality. When we accept who we are and we hear all the reactions from those who think they know us. You’ll hear things like, “This isn’t you.” “This is completely out of character.” “What happened to the Brad I used to know?” The truth is you’ve always been you. We lie to ourselves, we hide our weaknesses, we deny our faults, but in the end, it is our course of action that changes… not ourselves.
The best way to find out who you are is to sit down by yourself and ask yourself some questions. What do I enjoy? What makes me happy? What do I believe? I think the biggest reason for unhappiness in the world is that we do not allow ourselves to exist. We deny ourselves the things that make us happy and we continue doing things that make us unhappy. The question is why. Perhaps it is social pressure, or our own need to be approved and accepted by others. Maybe it is the fear of being alone.
The first person you need to love is yourself. The good book says. “Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” The most common statement in reference to this passage is that we should love others unconditionally and put their needs and happiness first. No one ever considers the fact that few people actually love themselves that way. Most people that I know, including myself, love themselves very little. So the first part of this commandment isn’t to love others but to love ourselves, because you cannot truly love others until you love yourself.
If you sat down and made a list of things in your life that make you unhappy, what would you write down?
Retrospect can be a good and bad thing. I definitely don’t want to become obsessed with the past, but I don’t want to ignore it either. If we don’t look back and see why we ended up in this place, we’re doomed to repeat every mistake we’ve ever made. Blame is something that we do to ourselves when we refuse to look back on why we made the choices we’ve lived to regret.
These are the writings of one person out of 7 billion. Just imagine what thoughts, dreams and revelations are out there, in this world that have yet to be written down.